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Woop Woop!! [27 Mar 2005|09:59am] Damnnn I haven't updated in a long assss time!  but oh well i hate when thoses nosiy ass bitches read your journal and talk shit about you but ya know what i dont give a fuck anymore! yea what now! Anyways yea I been having alot of fun latley! um. Monday: Randy spent the night and then Tommy and Justin came over for like 10 minutes and then then left and went to go get me something, then they came back sometime later that night! and me and randy just chilled we had alot of fun! lol Tuesday: Randy came back over and so did Tommy and Justin, i gave them somethings and they were trying to get me what i wanted but it didnt work out yet! it was pretty fucking gay! lol then me and reandy just chilled and watched Raise your voice a few times, but it was ok! lol then we went to bed! wednesday: i dont think i did anything except went bowling with like tons of people! it was alot of fun, lets just say i could of won if i had the rails up! lol Thursday: went to school then Sierra came and got me and chaz and my sister then we took my sister to work then brought chaz home and then we went back to my house! sierra and my dad talked and then my dad said i could spend the night with sierra then we left my house and went to Jesse and Nicole's and we hung out there for like 10 minutes i smoked with Jesse and Nicole, and then we all left and went to Silver sands, Sierra wanted to go into Coach and Dooney and Burke, damn Nicole, Jesse, and I were so fucking high and we were in thoses stores it was so funny! like Taelor called me and was like where are you and i was like im in Im in... and i couldnt say donney and burke i keep like saying im in burke and onney! it was so funny, then we went to Taco Bell and got a shit load of food! lol it was great! then we brought Jesse and Nicole home and then we were off to Niceville! then we chilled at Sierra's house and she talked to RC and they wanted to do something, but we never really got to it, so we just chilled at her house and crashed and went to sleep! i swear every fucking person in the world called my cell phone! it was prue gayness! Thursday: we got up at like 9 or so cause Taelor that dumb bitch keep calling my cell! then we ended up getting her like we drove by her house cause we were on our way to Justins, and she jumped in we were like damnn this is gay, so we went to Justins and we were supose to wait for Tommy and Justin to get back. but we didn't we talked to Angelica and Michelle for a while, and then we had to go to Brandon Wilsions house so we said we would be right back, and Justin and Tommy were going to the chicken store, so we would be back in time! lol then we went to brandons and hung out with him for like 20 minutes. i havent seen that kid in a long time! lol it was good to see him, then we went back to Justins and tommy and all of them were there so we hung out with them , well we were planing on going to PC well like justin was like you all cant take angelica and we played a joke on them and we all jumped in the car and just drove down the road, dude justin and Tommy jump in tommys car so fast and were gonna go after us, i swear they were fucking pulling out and about to peel out but then we pulled up right behind them! it was funny then we went back in to the house. Tommy Bought me cheeto's cuz im a fat whore and i will love him forever cause cheetos is like my favorite thing! haha and guess what i got a hug from Thomas Gorman! haha lol then we all left and we to PC! i swear we got so many freakin' beads! lol and we got a few dollars to! then we went to the beach, chilled there and then taelor and michelle and sierra went to go and get her car and drive it back to hooters, well me and angelica were sitting on the sets and we meet theses guys from freeport and they gave us a beer it was great! lol we drove up and down the strip it was alot of fun! then we went that night to! we did alot of other things to but im not gonna go there! friday: we woke up and then went to angelice's house and we walk in and theres Mr. Thomas, sleeping on the couch scrunched up in a lil balll! lol and then Justins in his room snoring away! lol it was so funny! then Tommy woke up, aww i swear he looked so cute when he woke up but im a far whoree.then we chilled over there for a lil while and then we were like ok we gotta go to Publix, so the girls went with us nd we left the boys home! lol and then we went to publix and got some chicken, and picked up a few things for my mom, then we went to the chicken store which we should have gone there in the first place but were dumb and we didnt! lol then we got some patato logs whick our so freaking good! then we went back to Angelica's house and chilled over there for a lil while! ate our chicken, talked goofed around! then me and sierra left to go and drop the stuff off at my house, then we went back to angelicas and i swear it was crazy, me sierra and tommy were outside cause tommy was trying to fix something on our car and all we hear is this screaming, and tommy was like it started happening ever sice yall left! i was like damn, tommy said angelica pulled a knife on Justin and im a fat whore, i swear it was crazy Tommy tried to stop t but justin picked him up and threw him! it was fucking crazy! alot of other shit happened to but i dont feel like getting into in! well that was my week! im gonna have alot more fun to! bye yall 6 Tell me lies

Mhmmm [26 Feb 2005|01:56pm] [ mood | mellow ] [ music | "Since you Been Gone" Kelly Clarkson ] Wow.. i Haven't updated in a while! lol but yea, i would write in my journal more but theres thoses noisy (sp) bitches that read it and judge you on every lil thing! but i dont care, cause you know what i dont care what people think of me!  Anyways, Last night Stevo & Kyla came over after they got out of work at Sonic, they got fucked up in my drive way it was so funny! and we talked and i think after they get out of work tonight i think were all going to go and hang out with like Tyalor or something get some weed or some shit like that, but i dont know!  Well i'm out of South Walton, My mom went to go and get me Last thursday, like check me out and i had already left with Hailey & Carol, so my mom thinks that i need more supervision so im going to be going to the Acadmey. I really dont care i mean its just a school ya know, and my mom talked to Heather Tindles mom, Sonya, and Next year i think im going to be going to Freeport with Heather! which is really cool. Heathers one of my best friends, and like me she hates alot of people from South Walton. Anyways, ive had a good week. Last weekend i went out and hung out at Taelors and got fucked up with her mom, lol watched this really cool movie called "bully" it reminds me of something i want to do to a couple of people, kill them. lol j/k then i hung out with Andrew & Fish. there awsome, and i snuck out Monday, Tuesday, & Wednesday, but on Monday i started getting sick, and it carried on till Friday- it sucked to cause i had the flu. and i was supose to start the acadmey on Wednesday, but i never got to and it sucked! oh well i guess i will Monday... So i hear that Monday we have to take hat stupid FCAT test, got i hate that shit but hey at least this will be our last year taking it, well thats only if you pass! I talked to Michelle for a lil while last night i havent talked to her in ages, and i talked to Katie, were going to try and see if we can do something tomarrow, we just got to figure how the whole ride thing is going to work. My mom said she would go and get her so that will be cool! i hope it works out i havent see katie in a long time the last ntime i saw her was when Me, Shane, & Richard went to Niceville. god i miss that girl, you can tell her anything and she doesnt treat you different, and she doesnt go off and run her mouth either! thats a true friend, not like alot of people around here!  they stab you in the back. Ok well im gonna go, Stevo & Kyla just pulled up in the drive way. i wonder what they need now! lol naw i guess were going to figure out what time were going to hang out tonight or something. well i'll try and update more but i dont know!  Oh yea i forgot to tell ya i dyed my hair Burgendy! (sp) it looks really cute ill post some pictures later if i have time! <3 Tell me lies

Happy Birthday!! ..and other Info [30 Jan 2005|06:13pm] [ music | Nuthing ] Happy Sweet 16.. Caroline Myers & Christina Kelly Yea Caroline got her license!! its great! she looks so cute driving her carlol well this week has been ok, got in some more trouble but that doesnt surprise me! lol Chelsey (shanes sister) came to the store on Friday, and boy did we have fun! lol we like took so much stuff! it was great and like we filled up 2 purses full of shit for her and kaylie. lol then we got her 28 new belly button rings! lol and they are so cute then i talked to her boyfriend JJ hes in hawaii right now to record his band or something like that! lol then Friday night i went out with Justin, we had fun. Saturday i went to work and Shane & Kevin came in and Shane was being a reall asshole, so like Chelsey called me and we talked and i told her what happened, and shes like i'll call u back, then next thing ya know shanes calling and saying he's sry. so i said ok fine, then Shane and Jestin came over and we chiled for a while and taelor was over we had fun Shane was like beating the shit out of taelor, it was soo funny and me and Justin just sat back and watched. then all night me and Chelsey talked, and Shane and Kevin came to my window, at like 12 and Jessica came to my window at like 8:30 and gave me my new cell phone, i got one of thoses boost mobile beep beep, so now i have a beep beep and i can talk to Nextel people im so excited! but i have to wit till i go to the cirlce K or like walmart or best buy to go get one of thoses cards, cause Devin shut my Credit card off! omg i was soo pissed, but hes turning it back on tomarrow! what a jerk i dont care im so over him, ive got somebody new now!! lol anyways, like the whole night me and Chelsey were talking about Nepolan Dynamite (sp) movie! we were laughing so hard! lol then we called her boyfriend and left him the funniest message ever! lol we had alot of fun so we were on the phone till like 2:00 and then like we both just hit a tired mode, so then we went to bed , then at 5:00 Justin calls me to see what i was doin and i was like well, what do normal people do at 5 in the morning, yea they sleep. lol and then i hear shane in that background, all fucked up and hes trying to sleep! lol it  was so funny! like Justin said mabye and Shanes all like i didnt say mabye, it was soo funny. then i went back to sleep. I woke up this morning at like 1:45 cause Chelsey called, and my parents and sisters went to walmart without me but i dont care, so me and Chelsey talked for a while and then Taelor called me and Chelsey was all like i want to beat her ass, i mean she really wants to kill taelor, and like then Kesley called and Chelsey wanted to go yell at her so i was supose to call her back in like 10 minutes but i forgot, then i talked to taelor and she was all like talk to Chelsey for me i dont have a problem with her i want to be cool with her, but the thing is I dont want to get in the middle of it, so they need to talk to eachother. Then Shane called and he needs more Lt's so i guess hes going to come over tonight and pick them up! wooh what am i turing into? lol, Well now im talking to Chelsey and im gonna go cause im going to go and straighten my hair, plus i have to call Chelsea B. back and get things ready for Jeanette's surprise party, on tuesday Jeanette's turning 16 and like its going to be so much fun, like were all pictching money to buy Jeanette a surf board, i have to call like Shane and Kevin and all of them and tell them to get off on tuesday! ok well im gonna go now, im not going to be able to update that often cause my dad dont let me use his computer anymore! but i'll use my sisters! ok I'm Out-  <3 Rian 2 Tell me lies

Last Couple Of Days... [22 Jan 2005|07:38pm] [ mood | hot ] [ music | "Fuck A Bitch"- ] Yea So, the last couple of days have been funnn.... Tuesday: Went to school, had an o.k day, the Taylor came over and she spent the night (we said we had a project to do, lol) and we just chilled and talked nuthing to much went on there. then i like talked to Shane all night till like 2:00 in the morning, and all we did was talk about Katie! haha it was grrreat! then that was about it! lol. Wednesday: i went to the store, Jeanette took a taxi up there haha, i think thats soo funny, then Taylor came up there, and we all hung out we ordered Pizza- and boy was that good lol. then we went back to my house and we got fucked up. and then Simon and Derek came over and we talked for a while, then they went to the gas station to get some cigerettes, and me and Taylor waited at the bridge and we meet this guy names Joey, and yea he was a cutie, so like Jeanette meet him when she got back and then we went back to my house with Simon and Derek, and then they left. Then Joey was walking down the road we meet up with him and we huing out with him the whole night then like him and Jeanette were all together! it was so cute. then like he got in a fight with his aunt (my neighbor) cause like she was telling him that we were like 13 years old , we were like what the fuck? but he was like no there not and all this shit so then like they kicked him out and my dad was going to let him stay at our house, well like i was in the computer room and Taylor was in the Shower and like Jeanette and Joey made out on my couch. haha it was great. the were getting really close the whole night like he was giving her back massage. lol they were so cute, like i was in a bad mood cause Taylor was like pissing me off and she thought it was because of Jeanette and Joey, but it was because of her cause all she keep talking about was Shane! omg im telling ya it was soo annoying like me and Jeanette were getting so pissed. lol well here are some of the pictures from the night and the morning, like we were all up so late and we HAD to go to school the next morning, god we were all so pissed! lol ( Hahah What a Night.. ) Thursday: um... i came home and didnt do anything i needed to catch up on my sleep! and boy am i glad that i did, cause Wow friday was a hell of a night. Friday: ok went To school. hung out with Steve O. in first peroid, and we were talking about what we were going to do this weekend and i said i didnt know and he sayed he would stop by my house, and see if i wanted to do anythging with him so we exchanged # (and yall im telling you this kid is hott) lol. then like we had a pep rally at school i think i took like one picture but i dont feel like getting my camera out right now, dude the pep rally was soo funny, and gay at the same time like me and Jeanette were making fun of everyone!lol and then after that Jeanette came home with me and we went to the Store, Shane came over and then i gave him some money and some weed, and then he left then me and Jeanette hung out with Heather (jeanettes sister) her and Kevin came to the store. then me and Jeanette went home and we called Shane to see what was going on cause everyone said they were going to go to taylors so we were like ok well go. well like Heather, came over like her and Kevin were having problems, so she chilled over here for a while, we got fucked up. and then we walked around my neighborhood and then Simon and Derek came over and i got more weed. and we talked and then what do you know Shane pulls up like right behind them, and then Jesse's right behind Shane, it was crazy so like... Shane, George, Patrick, Jesse, Alex, Sam, Simon, Derek, Brian, Me, Jeanette, and Heather were all at my house. well they werent in my house but they were on my road and it was crazyy. besides the fact i was on the phone with Kayla, George's girlfriend. crazy stuff. so like everyone left and then Kevin came and got Heather and me and Jeanette went inside called some people, and then Steve O. calls, lol it was so funny cause i didnt know who it was and he was like hey and i was like whos this and he was like "i would like to speak to Rian Devine please" dude i was laughing so hard, and then he told me that he was going to come to my house, and i said ok , and he was like can i bring my girlfriend, i was like yea! i dont care i think shes sweet, so they came around 8:30 or so and like i finally like meet his girlfriend like i knew her, but not really ya know? and we talked and Britany was in the back of the seat, so i gave Steve O. his shit, and then they were like well call ya later, and if yall want to do something well come and get ya. so we were like ok. then it was like 10:30 and we called Steve O. to see what they were doin and they said they were at the bowling alley and that they were gonna call us a lil after 11 so we were like ok, well me and Jeanette were already fucked up and shit, and then we started talking and then we kind of took a nap well like people keep calling my phone to see if me and Jeanette were comming to this party and we were like um... we dont know, we told them yea, but we laid back down well like Shane called at like 1:50 and said that him and richard were on there way to my house so we were lik ok well we were going to smeak them in well i open my door to go to the kitchen to get some water and my moms up in the computer room and shane walks to my window and starts taping on it. so we were like um. my moms up and they said ok can yall leave so we snuck out we got ready and shit, and like we didnt have any shoes in my room so we put socks on grabed our shit, and ran like hell down the road to Shanes car, jumped in the back seat and then we were off to Alligator Point then like we sat there talked and then rolled a joint and we all got so fucking high! haha it was great lol. then me and Shane went and talked for a while, and then we went to the gas station and got something to drink then went back to alligator point, and chilled there for a while then Shane brought us back home at like 4:30 and we snuck back in and then jumped right in bed and went to sleep! haha it was great! we had alot of fun, i dont think me and Jeanette had that much fun in a while. it was great! i love her to death, shes so fun to be around. Well this morning we got up went to the Chicken store and got so much food like im not even kidding you! it was soo good to. like we only had like 3 hours of sleep we were lucky if we got 4 cause we had to be at work at 9:00 dude it was hell! lol then like Jeanette left she went home to take a shower and then she fell asleep. and then Taylor called and she came up to the store, then i called Shane to see what he was doin he was cleaning his room, haha wow thats a first lol. then like me and Taylor talked and she told me what happened, with her and Jesse, dude like some one left there Nextel phone in the store and like it was the yellow and black one and like i called Shane and told him, and he was like ok im taking it, so he came to the store like 20 minutes later, so i talked to him for like  minutes and then went out side said hey to Justin & Nick, they were off to go and get a new system for his car or some shit like that. i dunno but it sounds cool. then they left, and then we closed the store Taylor left and now im home bored as hell , i was going to go to the movies, but i dont have any money so that doesnt work out! lol Well i talked to Shane and hes supose to be comming over in a lil while after hes done getting high! lol i got to give him some shit! and i think Jeanette might come over soo i dunno, yea well i think im gonna go and take a nap while i wait! so im out! hope yall have a good weekend! if i dont talk to ya. Katie: i got to talk to you! something happpened and i need to tell ya, your gonna flip. o and i love thoses pictures that u sent me Shane came over like right when you gave them to me and i printed him out a copy! its great. ok talk to u later love you. <3 Rian Tell me lies

Just a lil bit.. [20 Jan 2005|06:46pm] [ mood | high ] [ music | "Throw It Up"- lil' John ] haha. dude i've had so much fun in the last 2 days. im kind of busy right now so i'll update in a lil while lets just say Jeanette, Taylor, & I, had some great times! i mean thats what Best Friends do right. Well, Jeanette, Simon, & Derek. are on there way over to come hang out for a bit! im excited and im talking to Katie! gotta love that girl i know i do! well im off i'll update later tongiht when i have more time and he have some pictures too! lol   <3 Tell me lies

Today... [17 Jan 2005|09:25pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | "#1 Stunna"- Big Timers ] Today. Worked at the store, Talked to Katie for like ever! (i'm telling ya we talked about everything) haha. Shane came over for a lil while, gave him some stuff. Then went home and slept. People called....Michelle, Katie, Shane, Mike, Ben, Derek... missed alot of the calls to, now off to bed!  good times. good times.   <3 Tell me lies

O God [16 Jan 2005|12:05pm] [ mood | lazy ] [ music | "And Dey Say"- Nelly ] Ok Friday- Shane, Richard and I went to see Billy's car and man was it a peice (it was like an 84 mercedes (sp) lol and it was like a disel and it had like dents on the side of the car!im tellin' ya it was a peice) so we talked to his mom, and we found oil in like the air vent or something so his mom said fine take it back so we did and he got his $850.00 back, (he worked at saks 5th avenue, and he had tons of cash on him) god like shane had this face on him like dude i want to jump him and steal all his money i swear they were gonna do it to! they we dropped Kaylie off at work and then brought billy home and then me Shane and Richard were off to Niceville so we drove around trying to find Katies house and we got a lil losted so we had to go to the gas station to find where the hell 20th street was, omg and there was this guy that was like staring at me and Shane i was like so freaked out and shane started waving at him omg it was so funny then he came up to the car and started talking to us! and i was all like oh god! then we left the gas station and  found  her house! so me and Shane went to her door and me and Katie just started talking it was so good to see her! we just keep huging eachother! it was like we havent seen eachother in 100 years! but it was soo good to see her!we were going to steal her for the weekend but she got in trouble so she couldnt go, and she sayed she could get a ride to my house today (sunday)and then me and her and Shane were going to go out, but i havent heard from her so i dunno!  so we were at her house for a lil while i got to tell her a lil bit of some stuff, it was soo good to see her! and im so stupid that i forgot her present at my house! dumb me! anyways it was fun that was the 2nd Niceville adventure me and Shane had together! lol they always get better! lol jk! yea well im waiting on Katie to see if were going to do anything if not then im gonna go back to sleep! *sighs* god this is such a gay weekend! lol alright im out!!   Bye Ya'll        <3 Rian Tell me lies

Were Stealing her!! and we MIGHT bring her back! we dout it! lol [12 Jan 2005|03:29pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | "My BOo"- Usher ] WERE KIDNAPING KATIE FRIDAY!!!! Shanes like got this whole plan and everything and its so going to work we just got to make sure that everyones on the same page! like were going to steal her like after we get out of school. Then all go hang out and then i think we might go to Shelby's creamation, i really dont want to go- cause i dont want to see it or see her like that but i think i might! out of respect ya know? Well  Katie and Shane will be there so thats all that matters! as long as i have 2 friends there it will help alot, ok well im gonna go i got to call Shane and figure out the rest of the plan!   bye for now... Katie: um... when you get this try to like text my phone or call me ( i know you cant but well figure out something) we need your address ok? and try to get online and talk to me about it if you get a chance! ok! i love you and were going to have so much fun! im so glad its going to finally work this weekend! haha  <3 Tell me lies

*sighs* I think my life has come to an END [11 Jan 2005|05:09pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | "Graduation"- Vitiman C ] im kind of sick of the whole journal thing! im sick of all the Drama and all the lies- people need to get over themselves! alots been going on........  My Best Friend passed away on Friday night! she got really sick and went into the hospital, she was throwing up blood and passing out and couldnt breathe, she was in thursday night and friday. Friday night she got worse and she was hooked up to all the machines, and they injected her with medicne that she was illergic to and she died about 30 minutes later. I'm going to miss her- she was a person that you could tell anything to her and she would listen and try to help! she was a true friend and i love her so much! what are me and Shane going to do without her? *sighs* im really going to miss her, all the fun times we had together all the sneaking out, the girl talks, talking to eachother about our problems, things best friends use to do- it brings tears to my eyes that shes not here anymore, and we wont have anymore good times together. i will certainly miss that!  everyones leaving me! mabye i should just go away or kill myself to! i dunno....... Thursdays the veiwing, and Friday's the creamation...... i really dont want to go, i dont want to see her like that, but im gonna go out of respect! i love her mom to death and i just want to spend time with her! Cindi told me all she does is sit in Shelby's room and cry and eat Wendy's (shelbys favorite place) i think thats so sad! i didnt even get to say goodbye to my Best Friend! *tears*......... Well Shane wants to know if Katie wants to hang out on Friday and us 3 all hang out, but she hasent answered me yet so i dunno i have a feeling its not going to work out cause of a reason, and if it dont im gonna be pissed! im so sick of peoples bullshit! but ya know Katie might have other plans so i guess we will see! Katie: we want to kiddnap you! we got a car and everything to do it! lol call me if you can! even if you cant were comming to get you anyway! lol oh and Mrs. Cindi wants to know if you want to go to Shelby's Veiwing, she knew yall were friends! but its up to u!  love you! -xoxo and im so sry about everything! Well i heard Shane had a good Birthday thats good! Very Happy for him- I Just...... oh never mind! if i say thins everyone will fucking freak out like usual! more bullshit! and Drama! Well i think im gonna go back to sleep im in one of those deprest (sp) moods *sighs* and i think im going to be it for a while! love you guys! <3 6 Tell me lies

Happy Birthday! [09 Jan 2005|04:03pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | "Happy Birthday" ]  HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANE TORREY!!!! I would have wrote that yesterday, but i just got my computer back today! well its better late then never! lol well im gonna go now and i will update later i have alot to talk about!  Rian Tell me lies

I Had Fun! [09 Jan 2005|03:43pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | "I Can Tell Ya Wanna Fuck"- 504 Boys ] I had Alot of Fun! i went to Universal Studios & Islands of Adventure then we went to Disney World! i had alot of fun! i had tons of pictures but my Digital camera deleted them all, and im very mad but we got some of them from this photo pass thing that Disney gave us! there really cute look! ( Some Pictures ) Tell me lies

When You wish Upon a Star! [27 Dec 2004|09:09pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | "My Boo"- Usher & Alica Keys ] Hey Guys! i leave for Disney World tomarrow! and i am so excited, but you can call me on my cell phone if you want to talk to me! but i'm going to have so much fun, i'm gonna forget all the Drama here and start over! alot of things are changing, Friendships, People, but its ok- i can try and live with that- i'm a strong person and i can make my own decisions- which i'm gonna start doin! well i'm going to go and finish packing and mabye call Shane..... I'm Gonna Miss Ya'll!!    -xoxo   Rian p.s. Leave me some comments to make me feel special!! lol             Love Ya'll! 2 Tell me lies

Life Goes on.... [26 Dec 2004|08:43pm] [ mood | quixotic ] [ music | "O Yea"- Big Timers ] Hey yall! I just got done packing for my trip! Shelby helped a lil bit, she was mainly on the phone like always! hehe and Danielle's on her way over and so is Shelbys Mom- her and my parents are going to talk about stuff... and i know excatly what there going to talk about! lol and i dunno what us girls are going to do, probley sleep cause i am so tired i had to get up at 7 this morning, and im not a morning person, and Danielle's bringing (f7) the money i left at her house- which im really excited! cause i get more money......*sighs* but then i have to give it to Shane! lol but its all good- hehe. Oh look Danielle's here, mabye well take pictures or something, or have our girl talks like we usually do! and you know who we always have to talk about?? yea take a guess...... and y do we have to talk about him? take another guess..... yep thats right Shelby!! its all about Shelby! lol j/k! Danielle: hii! just wanted to say hey even though i don't know you guys, but its ok! to the people i do know.... HEY!! and i know shane you'll be reading this! lol so hey i love you! hehe bye guys lol yea that was The Danielle- lil "Miss Princess"!  sry inside joke... long story! i'll explain later or just ask me about it! mhmmmm..... Yesss... lots of Drama tonight! but im leting go, i dont care anymore- I'm sick of the way everyone acts! people just need to get over themselves! and get a life! im so sick of it! thats y im not going to pay attention! Michelle & I talked about alot today- I'm really glad that shes there for me, She helps me with alot and helps me make really good decisions i know that i would not make by myself! expecially one i wanted to make tonight.... but its ok, I'm ok now! lol- Michelle's just one of the only people that i trust now! and i'm telling you i dont dont trust alot of people anymore! im sick of the lies, the people that are your friend to your face and talk shit behind your back- i'm done with it! so thats y im gonna like start keeping to myself- and some of my close friends! Ok well i got to go Shelby wants to write in her journal now! see what did i tell you all about Shelby! Cindi's here! yusss(god i love this mom!)! *rolls eyes* what a great night this is going to be! lol jk! oo yuss and i got presents! omg..... if you just saw what i got, your mouth would be wide open, cause im so not this kind of girl! lol im out Buh- Byee!   3 Tell me lies

Shopping Spree!! [26 Dec 2004|01:53pm] [ mood | touched ] [ music | "This ones for the girls"- Martina Mcbride ] Today i got up at like 7 (wow right! hehe) and then we went to walmart did a lil bit of shopping, got Shane some "Reces Pecies" and then we went to Ross- my mom got somethings, then we went to Old Navy and i got alot of new outfits, and there so cute, got a couple of jackets that zip up, some new Shirts, some pants! there great! then we went to Stein Mart- and i got 2 really cute sweat out fits ones pink and ones blue, then we went to Hollister and i got a sweatshirt! then went to Build a Bear for my sister & then ate at Jonny Rockets, i spent so much money today! but the good thing it wasent my money lol! j/k i'll try and pay my dad back- but i still owe for the phone Bills! yea and there about $500.00, but im getting like one of thoses pre-paid phones by Virgan Mobile! and im really excited! o yea and i got Shane a new Wallet! its really nice, and i put all the money in it so i can give it to him! I hope he likes it! I got Katie something else!!! its soo cute- she'll love it! and im getting her something in Disney World! and i leave on Tuesday- im excited, i just need to get away for a while! ya know? I hate when people write stuff about yopu in there Journal and dont even know what the fuck there talking about! i think its funny! but ya know its there life- its just showing me all they have time to do is write in a stupid journal, and talk down and talk shit about people, when there not so great themselves! but its cool! whatever floats your boat! Well i talked to Michelle a lil while ago and i just love talking to her! shes awsome! and she gives really good advice- which i totally love! well i think im gonna go get a nap- wait never mind Shelby just called! well im off! Byeee!!! love ya- xoxo  <3 Rian 1 Tell me lies

I guess life goes on...... [26 Dec 2004|03:54am] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | "Beauty School Drop Out"- Frankie Avalon ] We talked and all we did was fight! he doesnt care anymore, then y should i? But thats not what friends do, they stick together through thick and thin no matter what- but it doesn't seem like thats going to work between us. I miss the old you, the one who use to always be there for me and care for me, but now i dont have that anymore- i dont have anyone..... No one seems to care anymore! im sick of all the drama, i think people need to mind there own busniess! and if it doesn't have anything to do with you then stay out of it- unless i bring you in it! im sick of all the nosey lil' bitches- that want to start shit when it has nuthing to do with them, thats y me and him are the way we are now! cause of people like that. People thinking there being a good friend but are making things worse. I've tried to be a good friend- but people lie and make shit up, and then the other person belives them! which is so fucked up!! Me and him have driffted apart....but i want us to go back to the way things were where it was just me and him and no one else, i want the old boy "Best Friend" back- the one i could tell my problems to and know that he cared and would be there for me, the boy i would be on the phone with till 3 or 4 in the morning sometimes just laughing and talking about the most stupidest stuff, the one who i would always joke around with and he'd joke back, the boy i could trust, the boy i would spend all day with and have a good time, and be with when i was allowed..... I miss all of that- and i know things cant go back to the way that they were, but i hope that we could try- just talking to him tonight and hearing "Rian i dont care anymore, and neither should you" really hurts or "Fine then we'll both hang up now and we'll never talk again" that hurts even more! how can someone that you care for and love so much- treat you like that? we both know deep down inside that he cares he just doesnt want to show it! or some people that hes been starting to hang out with again, are putting lies about me in his head- and talking shit in a journal like usual! but i dont care about them!! i just want things back to the way that they use to be! Ok well i'm gonna try and get to bed now! i kind of need to lay down and sleep & mabye let some more tears out of my system....just thinking about all of this really hurts! its hard to except that fact that your losing another person..... 1 Tell me lies

Old Times? Where did they go? [26 Dec 2004|02:16am] [ mood | irritated ] [ music | "# 1 Stunna"- Big Timers ] y can't things go back to normal? y can't we go back to the way we use to be, always having fun, always joking around? i want our old friendship back! i dont know if you do but thats what i want! i miss all the goodtimes that we use to have- all the inside jokes! like "Hey look theres a nigger in the bush!!"......all goodtimes! y can't we go back to days like that? spent time with eachother like we use to? i know things are changing but friends are always supose to be there for eachother, and im really trying to be there or you! can't you do that same? i miss everything we use to have! i dont care about the money cause i know that you would never do that to me! i know you better then that- i just want things with us to go back to normal- the goodtimes thats we use to have! i miss the old you! the one who i could always talk to when i needed someone there! we've  been through so much together, does that count for anything? I Miss the Old you...... but I Still Love You! 2 Tell me lies

Breaking up The Hard Way- [25 Dec 2004|03:39am] [ mood | productive ] [ music | "The Bride"- Trick Pony ] Close to the door he paused to stand as he took his class ring off her hand all who were watching did not speak as a silent tear ran down his cheek and though his mind the memories ran of the moments they walked and laughed in the sand but now her eyes are so terribley cold for he would never again have her to hold they watched in silence as he bent near and whispered the words..... "I LOVE YOU" in her ear he touched her face and started to cry as he put on his ring and wanted to die and just then the wind began to blow as they lowered her casket into the snow.... this is what happens to man alive..... .....when friends let friends drink and drive.   aww yall i think that is so cute! sry i can't sleep so i decided to write one of my favorite poems in here! well i think im going to try and go to bed now! and i hope ever one has a good Christmas and gets what they want! i'll update in the morning! -xoxo <3 2 Tell me lies

I Will Never Forget You! [24 Dec 2004|05:18pm] [ mood | thankful ] [ music | "Southside"- Lloyd & Ashanti ] Howdyyy Ya'll!  lol sry went country for a minute! hehe anyways whats been going on? nuthing much here just got home a lil while ago- and boy was work a long day! lol anyways Hanks Burrial was today i couldn't go! Not cause i wasen't allowed to, i just couldn't see one of my friends being lowerd (f7) into the ground- it was already heart broken hearing that he's dead, but seeing him lowerd into the ground.... sry i can't handle that! Anyways Shane stoped by the store for like 10 minutes with Billy & Bruce- but i didnt talk to them and then i was in the bank and Shane came in and he meet Pam (the lady that works there) lol shes soo funny! she acts just like a teenager- its great, anyways they met eachother, she was all like oo your Shane..blah blah blah... hehe it was so funny and she was a lil embarasing! but i liked it! it was only Shane so i didnt really care! Shelby's Mom came in the store today and she gave me my Christmas Present, omg it is soo pretty its this rerally pretty neclace! i love it so much its soo cute! and i felt bad cause i didnt get her anything but she went out of her way to get me something that was so nice! but i'll find her something in Disney World when we all go! and Cindi sayed that Shanes going so thats really cool! im excited to spend time with everyone, i even like the fact that its in Disney World!  and thats my favorite place! you just got to love Disney World! and im leaving on the 28! and i come back like the 8th! im really sad that im not going to be here for Shane's Birthday (but i might make it!) but b4 i leave me and Katie are going to try and get together and do something- and im excited! Well the parents are cooking right now! it smells really good, i cant wait to eat it! lol, we dont eat like a big meal, we eat finger foods! lol i guess you can say its a family tradition! i like it! and then we open 1 present, and then read the Christmas story while sitting in front of the fire, and roasting Marshmellows, and then we go to bed! i love Christmas time! its really sad now though cause my grandma's not around this was her favorite time of year! i remeber when i was little helping her cook dinner! i dunno its thoses kind of memories that you never forget! and i really miss them! My grandma died of cancer Febuary 10, three days b4 her Birthday and now my Best Friend is going though it! and its really hard to handle! but i know shes strong and she can do it! im always going to be here for her! i know that we dont talk that much anymore but its ok! i'll always be here. Well the timer for the food just went off so i think im going to go and spend some time with my family now! i hope that ever one has a Merry Christmas! and i will update my night and day tomarrow sometime! i love yall! -xoxo  ♥ Rian 2 Tell me lies

New Layout! [23 Dec 2004|07:55pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | "Lose My Breath"- Destiny Child ] New Layout! New Layout!  aww thankyou soo much Katie! i love it alot!   well today i went to work and hung out with Liz, my mom left me and her there all alone and we had alot of fun then Shane came in when he was comming back from freeport, and he took like 25 Reces (ya know the candy) lol it was so funny! and then gave Shane his money! ( i know i know Katie i messed up again) but anyways i talked to Katie for a while today and she help me understand alot and she gave me some really good advice and i was really gald she was there to help me out! and she made me a new layout for my Journal! and i love it so much! haha thanks again Katie! Well i hope that everyone has a good Christmas! and a Happy New Year! lol- well anyways i was all singing to Katie on the phone today it was alot of fun, she says im a good singer but we both know that im not! lol we both talked about alot of stuff and were going to try and do something b4 i leave for Disney World on the 28! it should be alot of fun! i know Katie likes Pooh Bear so im gonna get her like a stuff animal or something! lol Hmmm.... well i have been doing alot of thinking latley and im just done with everyones B.S, and im gonna let go of all my old grudges- but im not going to let people walk all over me anymore im sick of it i try to be so nice to people and then they turn around and treat me like shit! and its NOT going to happen anymore! i dont know people can start calling me a bitch i dont care anymore, but im not being a bitch, i've just let people walk all over me way to long and now that im changing and standing up for myself people dont like it well tough! cause this is the new me and if yall dont liek it then get over it! lol sry *deep breath* hehe- I dunno i'm thinking about changing my Journal to a "Friends Only" but i dont know, i dont want to copy everyone around here ya know? Anyways, the other night one of my really good friends  ( Hank Prunner ) killed himself- he shot himself in the head, he was playing Russian Rolliet (sp) and thought that he took all the bullets out shot it 5 times to the head and then (i heard he put it in his mouth but i dont really know) put it in his mouth and shot himself! Shane told me yesterday- he came in the store and just flat out told me! i wanted to cry so bad but i couldnt do it in front of Shane and Liz! Hank and i use to talk about so much, but when i heard that happened i couldnt belive it! Shane sayed that he sayed he had nuthing going for him so y keep living? he's got a lil sister, Jordy, whose best friends with my sister! thats something to live for! His Grandma, i know his mom is dead but you cant change that and you need to move on or at least try to, i know thats what im trying to do with my grandma- - but Hank was such good person and i wish that someone could have stoped him! liz told me that she heard his friend was supose to take all the bullets out but he left one in- how could someone do that? i could NEVER! i dont know its just so sad ya know? one of your good friends gone...... now what do you do?     R.I.P Hank Prunner  12-21-04  You Will Be Greatly Missed!  I Love You!  Well i won a bet last night! lol haha i was soo excited i called Shane and told him and he was all like "yea now you can give it to me"! and i was all like yea great! lol but i gave him like $200.00 of it today and im going to give him the rest of it tomarrow- well thats if he come to the store! but yea- i dunno if im gonna give him all of it though cause Katie told me not to, but i dont know what to do- i dunno im dying my hair i think this weekend if Katie comes over! im excited, im gonna like dye it Burgundy (sp) Jeanette sayed i would look good with that color hair so i guess we will see! and Katie's gonna cut my hair and everything! and hopefully this weekend i can Kidnap her! lol *wink wink * remeber Katie? lol hehe Well im off im gonna go take a shower, Straighten my hair, and then probley call people and then go to bed! i just can't get hank off my mind! it hurts so bad ya know! but there will always be a place for him in my heart! well im off now! -xoxo love yall ( Miss Devine ) 3 Tell me lies

Alright Listen [21 Dec 2004|04:21pm] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | Nuthing ] ok- i dont know where everyone is getting there information from but nuthing in my Journal has to do with Tiffany, Sydney Katie, Michelle or any of you guys- i have no reason to say anything about yall! unless i pacificaly (sp) say your name then its not ment to any of yall ok!  im sry if yall think that but its not to yall at all! and i would hope you guys would stop thinking that!   ♥ 2 Tell me lies

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